I've always loved Christmas. Some people get depressed by the end of october and until Spring comes back, and I must admit the lack of light also has that effect on me, but by the beginning of december something changes, maybe the Christmas lights in the streets, the smell of hot wine and cinnamon, or the look on the children's faces when they spot the colored shop windows... Or maybe just the thought that, however hard the year may have been, it's now coming to an end, letting room for a new one, full of hopes and expectations. I am an optimistic. I figure new year means new good stuff. 2009 was a cursed year for many people I know.
This year I lost my grandpa whom I loved dearly, I divorced the ony man I thought worthy of being given a chance at married life, I lost track of a very dear friend that I will always miss (and if you read these lines, I hope you are safe and happy, my favorite fake spouse) and lots of other little dramas and complications in my RL and SL.
Now that I look back at it, all I can think of is "wow! I survived". My friends say that I've changed this year, that I was forced to grow more mature and they're probably right, I never wanted to become a "grown up" because then, you get wrinkled, you get old and you die. But close to my 32nd birthday I have to admit it's actually not such a big deal, and I feel fine. All in all, I am thankful, this year I realised who really matter, and to all of them I send a huge hug: Eithne, my precious friend and shoulder to cry on, I wish that in 2010 none of us needs to cry on the other's shoulder (and that we meet, at last). Richy, mijn draak, without your laugh life would be less tasty, I wish you no hospital at all this year, for you and your family. Aryanna, Boaz, Kouse, Renee... please be always inspired in creating beautiful things, you are beautiful people.
Kiwi, Gertie, Chiller, Cux, Saffron, Lavendar, Rosalie, Darkmoon, Dawnbeam, Opacus, Tavia, Vox, Maplesky, Immortelle, Draggy, Ken, Tex, Daria... I wish you all something better in your lives, thank you for making my year less hard just by being my friends.
Now, what to hope, to expect, for the year to come?
This year I lost my grandpa whom I loved dearly, I divorced the ony man I thought worthy of being given a chance at married life, I lost track of a very dear friend that I will always miss (and if you read these lines, I hope you are safe and happy, my favorite fake spouse) and lots of other little dramas and complications in my RL and SL.
Now that I look back at it, all I can think of is "wow! I survived". My friends say that I've changed this year, that I was forced to grow more mature and they're probably right, I never wanted to become a "grown up" because then, you get wrinkled, you get old and you die. But close to my 32nd birthday I have to admit it's actually not such a big deal, and I feel fine. All in all, I am thankful, this year I realised who really matter, and to all of them I send a huge hug: Eithne, my precious friend and shoulder to cry on, I wish that in 2010 none of us needs to cry on the other's shoulder (and that we meet, at last). Richy, mijn draak, without your laugh life would be less tasty, I wish you no hospital at all this year, for you and your family. Aryanna, Boaz, Kouse, Renee... please be always inspired in creating beautiful things, you are beautiful people.
Kiwi, Gertie, Chiller, Cux, Saffron, Lavendar, Rosalie, Darkmoon, Dawnbeam, Opacus, Tavia, Vox, Maplesky, Immortelle, Draggy, Ken, Tex, Daria... I wish you all something better in your lives, thank you for making my year less hard just by being my friends.
Now, what to hope, to expect, for the year to come?
- that the people I love find peace and happiness, always have a roof above their heads and food in their plates, and be in good health
- that the people who hurt or betrayed me realise how mean they have been and don't ever make anyone else suffer
- that I can go back home, at last
- that you, reader, have a wonderful year!
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Left to right: Eithne, Rosalie, Boaz, Devora, me, Alexandra
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