Me, myself and I... and blog posts

I'm being quite a loner on SL these days. I mainly log to catch goodies, take pics, write blog posts and log out. I am still connected with the ones I love though, and enjoy an occasionnal chat with my firends, but nothing like the social life I used to have as a roleplayer. Much less drama, too, which is a nice change. I've cleaned my friendslist from all the people who were not really friends. Acquaintances disappeared, I only stick to what and who matters. In that same Idea, I've been cleaning my inventory and found some cute things I didn't even know I had, and some ugly things I don't have anymore already...

My RL is changing too, slowly but surely. My divorce was settled a few days ago, and it feels good to know that chapter is over. Good to know also that the man I was married to is now a precious friend. Funny how my RL can be drama-less (just had the easiest divorce ever) and my SL... not so much. *giggles*

Betrayal and ugly people...

Ah... don't you just luuurve drama? I personnally don't. Really. But it seems SL is full of people who have nothing else to do with their lives... Probably their RL is so flat and uninteresting they need to go watergate on any glitch in their SL, they need to find people to adore and be "loyal" to, even the most ordinary manipulative power hungry control freak... Anyway, they do it at the cost of what, to me, is the most precious thing, friendship and trust. And that makes me angry. All I wish to mommy's good little puppy dog is a life at her image, full of hypocrisy and betrayal, and to her "boss", just that one day all the hurtful things she's said and done get back to her face, not even stronger, no, just AS strong as what she gave.
My only consolation is that my pixelated soulmate left before he could see that...
You, reader, don't know me, or barely, but let me tell you one thing, I put trust and friendship above these ridiculous control wars, and I keep my conscience clear.
Anyway, I spilled my guts and I am not going to bore you any longer with my anger and bitterness, especially since they never stay long...

Now, what to do next? Since what was my home for the past 2 years will never be an option again (and you know what? Their loss). I think I'll deal with the blogging for a while, that, at least, is a safe thing, plus showing people the work of designers I appreciate as creators and friends is very satisfying, even if their creations, at least what SL can see of them, are only pixels, these people are true artists and generous and kind souls:
Aryanna DeCuir (Geisha Dreams Skins)
Kouse Singh (Kouse's Sanctum)
Lano Ling (Poetic Colors)
Dimawa Capalini (D'Signs)
Boaz Sands (Simply Fae) ...
Just thank you.

See you on Fae in the Wardrobe



Love

Rosie

Leaving home

Sometimes, when you lose a friend, life is just too hard to bear. It seems like the world is coming to an end, and you need to move on, otherwise you'll just end up buried with the lost... I left Avilion yesterday, I stripped myself of all the titles I had rightfully earned, and the one I should have earned but never was given to me. It's funny how easy it is to untick a box... I'm surprised no one ever managed to do it the other way round. You put in time and investment, and you think people will notice. But they don't, they break you and insult you instead.
To whom it may concern, if you ever read this, I am not scared of you anymore. I am a good person, loyal to those who deserve it, I know what I'm worth, I am a successful young woman and luckily I have other things in my life that a computer and a pixelated world.
I have tried hard to find it in my heart to forgive you for the way you treated me. I just can't. Now I'm moving on. And it's your loss.

Regrets

I know I haven't posted for a while, but I've had RL issues I won't bore you with (especially because the maybe 3 people who read this blog know about them already). I just wanted to say I think I am back now, trying to find a balance... In the past few weeks I've managed to hurt someone I love dearly, mainly because I was hurting and needed to blame someone for all the anger and frustration I was feeling... I am sorry.



Rose

Photo contest

When I received the note from my friend Morrigan (The Black Canary, you can read about his beautiful work here), I started bouncing up and down...a contest!!! So I started thinking, and thinking, and thinking some more... Actually I've been thinking about it for a month, trying clothes, poses and all, until I was finally happy with my entry and could release it in the Flickr pool...So here it is for you:

Deadline is on the 25th of July, so pretty soon, so hurry if you want to be in!

Fashion Alert!

My good friend Shayariel sent me a very nice picture yesterday of the latest Vogue cover... She says green is the new black this year!!



Thank you so much Shay!!!!

*hugs*

Mouse face got married!

My best friend in this life got married last night, and of course I could simply not miss that...

The blushing bride (hard to tell with the grey skin)

Devora and I, the bridesmaids...

Celestia, Energy and Giles

Elli, Juniper, Tauceti and Killyan

Shayariel, Dark and Ranarie

Rayne

Sharl and Tan, 2 sides of the same coin... and what a coin!
One of the most precious to me

You may kiss the bride... and tie her up with ductape *grins*